EMO SESSIONS

TAKE ME BACK

Do you still remember back when days were longer, dreams were bigger then? The weight of the world had not yet landed on the shoulders of a man. I thought that time stood still, sheltered, protected. They never told me this would end or that the leaves would fall again.

There was a day when this world went to war and didn't bat an eye.
Real life in the movies felt the same to me and I never questioned why. I know the difference now, between fact and fiction. But I've come to find that I've grown bitter in just 22 short years.

Now we're running, we're running blind into the light and we fall behind.  We're running and wasting away with time.  So take me back, back to better days when we were not afraid cause this time between is wasting me away.

BY MYSELF

Don't ask me how I'm feeling
Because I'll just say "ok"
But really it say nothing
On just how I feel today
Don't ask me what I'm thinking
On what's going through my brain
If only you got a taste
You'd think I was insane
Don't ask me what I'm saying
Or why I talk at all
I'm just reminding myelf I can speak
As I walk through the empy hall
Don't ask me what I'm seeing
Because you could see it too
If you'd only open your eyes
But right now you havn't got a clue
Don't ask me what I'm doing
You wouldn't understand
I'm just waiting for 'The End'
Seeing all the chaos at hand 

INNOCENCE

I still remember the world from the eyes of a child but
slowly those feelings were clouded by what I know now.
Where has my heart gone? An uneven trade for the real
world.  I want to go back to believing in everything and
knowing nothing at all.  I still remember the sun-always
warm at my back.  Somehow it seems colder now.

I just want to go back to believing in everything..

THE HARDEST GOODBYES ARE THE ONES LEFT UNSAID

"It just ain't living and I just hope you know that if you say goodbye today, I'd ask you to be true 'cause the hardest part is leaving you.."

You will always be loved by us. See you on the other side, dear grandma..

LIFE

Life..

Does not portend
That all will fail
And not succeed in the end
It means we share
What ever we own
Until our utmost grace
Is shown
It means one day
We will change
And get older
And rearrange

Life..

What more can I say
Except I promise to live
And cherish it in every way

BLACK

"You're black! You are deep and mysterious, the perfect mix!"

WE HAVE TO ESCAPE

Another day goes without any change.  The feeling we live with still remains.  We're stuck in a hole and we're searching for anything to hold on to.  There has to be somewhere that we can be safe from the lives we live each day.  There has to be somewhere that we can be far away...

We could be living how we wanted to, instead of doing things we're forced to do with no one to tell us that we should be going through what they went through. There has to be some place that nobody knows, somewhere we can only go. There has to be some place that we can be all alone...

We have to escape and I will go anywhere if you just lead the way.  Escape to a place wh ere we'll be together, together everyday... We have to escape....

THE STARS ARE BRIGHT TONIGHT

Did I get lost while I was gone?  I traveled space for much too long but there's a planet I have found and you are far away, so far away for now.. </3

WHEN THE CLOCK STRIKES 12

I just wanted you to know.. I think about you every night.. When I fall asleep, you were in my dreams.. Just like in a movie, the one you wanna see.. with a HAPPY ending..

..do you do the same thing? :'(

I'LL MEET YOUR EYES.. I MEAN THIS FOREVER

 

..but this time, I mean it.. I'll let you know just how much you mean to me..  As snow falls on desert sky.. as days fade, and nights grow.. and we go cold..

until the end of everything..

WITHOUT FEAR

Se in uomo fragile
Nuove risposte tardano ad affiorare
Invisibili distante
E’ inevitabile
Inevitabile risveglio

Dentro di me non c’è niente
Di fede immobile più niente

Here I am
I’m giving myself to you
Without fear

Invisibili distanze
E’ inevitabile
Ricordano un addio per sempre

If in a weak man
new answers are long to appear
Invisible, distant
it's inevitable
inevitable awakening

Inside of me there is nothing
of immobile faith, nothing

Here I am
I’m giving myself to you
Without fear

Invisible distances
it's inevitable
they'll forever recall a farewell

Inside of me there is nothing
of immobile faith, nothing

DEAR MYSELF

Sadness and depression is what lies behind your
eyes... Or even so, you can't even tell what
lies behind your eyes because they're
constantly covered up with tears! You've been
hurt, abused, and damned far too much for you
to handle it all anymore! No one understands
you because theyre too scared to get to
know you! You want to finally give up; just
escape and rid of all your pain. You want
people to understand, you want comfort... You
tend to bottle up all of your emotions and
problems, hoping that theyll all go away But
you long to reach out and tell that one special
person all of your feelings and troubles! But
you never seem to have that person to talk to,
or they just dont want to hear you! You want a
normal and happy life. Though
that picture is porcelain in your mind; it's
not as great as it seems, and most importantly,
it's not real! You always feel this
sense of loneliness clouding over your head;
isolated though surrounded by several people.
None of them know you; none of them see what's
wrong with you. You want understanding, you
want that friend, and you want that perfect
life! You often find isolated places as being
your salvation; any place away from 'them' is
ideal to you. You also love to express yourself
in many ways; whether it be through your
emotions, words, art, or even physically. You
think no one can relate to you, but you don't
know how wrong you are! You're just too scared;
too scared to admit that maybe you're wrong
about society... You want company, but at the
same time, you're scared of it. Your sanctuary
is your room where you can just be alone and
try to throw away all of your aching pains.
You're dark and mysterious and people like you
for that reason. Even if you think you're all
by yourself in the dark, someone is always
there with you. Your special someone wants to
admit and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Maybe it
isn't as bad as you portray it to be! Life
brings smiles, tears, laughter and memories...
The smiles fade, the tears dry, and the
laughter eventually dies down... But the
memories... Those last forever! So try to make
them memories you can cherish... You only live
once, so make it the best as possible :) Don't
start frowning! You never know who's falling in
love with your smile :)

Love,

Me

TWO-WAY STREET

Makes you think...you never know what the other

person is thinking....speak your mind..

BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: he SAID he missed me..

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I lost him

MY KIND OF A GUY (*sigh)

I'm the guy that says, "You're beautiful."

I'm  the guy that gives you flowers and a card when your
sick

I'm the guy that is never too busy to drive across
town to see you.

I'm the guy who gives you flowers just because.

I'm the guy that says I would die for you.

I'm the guy that really would.

I'm the guy that does what you want to do.

I'm the guy that will regret hurting you.

I'm the guy that will cry in front of you.

I'm the guy that you can cry in front of.

I'm the guy that holds your hand.

I'm the guy that kisses you with meaning.

I'm the guy that hugs you when your sad.

i'm the guy that hugs you for no reason at all.

I'm the guy who would give my jacket up.

I'm the guy that calls to make sure you got home
safe.

I'm the guy that would sit and wait for you for hours
just to be able to see you for ten minutes.

I'm the guy that would give his seat up.

I'm the guy that just wants to cuddle you.

I'm the guy that reassures you that you are beautiful
no matter what...

I'm the guy that believes in you.

I'm the guy who tells his secrets and fears to you.

I'm the guy that tried to show how much he cared
through every word and every breath.

I'm the guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

I'm the guy that believes in your dreams.

I'm the guy that would have done anything so you
could achieve them.

I'm the guy that will never laugh at you when you tell
me your dreams.

I'm the guy that walks you to your car.

I'm the guy that actually listened.

I'm the guy that gave his heart only to have it
shoved back in his face.

I'm the guy that would wait for the day when we
could be together

I'm the guy who has made you laugh when you don't even want to smile

I'M THE GUY THAT PRAYS THAT YOUR HAPPY EVEN IF I'M
NOT WITH YOU.

**So rare to find guys like that these days... I think they've become 'extinct'.

DARN IT

Have you ever felt so ALONE though many people sorround you and nothing makes sense?  Well that is how I feel right now.  I feel like I'm facing everything by myself (which is so true) with nothing but tears and a fake smile.  The silence gets us nowhere but what's the use of speaking these things up?  It won't make any difference at all.  Darn it... will these things end?.. When? :'(  

"HAPPY GO LUCKY"

Love, all my love was yours.. of this I was so sure.  I guess I never saw it coming but I'm over the surprise. I'm wearing this disguise so everyone can think I'm having fun. 

Now, I've put it to the test.. I know it's for the best.  In fact it's good you walked out on me.  I, I've learned how to survive without you in my life.. so why am I still talking 'bout you lately?

The world only sees me smiling.. :) My pillow knows the truth every night cuz that's where I hide my sorrow.. :(

And they call me 'happy go lucky'.. they don't know my heart is dying inside.  A smile's a frown turned upside down.  I do my 'happy go lucky' so well I'm even fooling myself.

When I see the morning light, I put on this facade. It's all I've got to protect my pride.  It's all I've got.. this smile is all I've got.. 

ONLY HAPPY WHEN IT RAINS

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal.  Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels like when she's so good in hiding all of 'em.. pretending everything's fine.. the fact she's bleeding inside.  Everytime someone asks if she is okay... it's just a reminder that she is not.  Some things are better left unsaid. 

Now tell me.. Do you agree with me??

BULIMIC

From the way that you acted to the way that I felt it, it wasn't WORTH my TIME.  Now it's sad cause all that I missed wasn't good enough to begin with.  Now that I've started you begging, saying things that you don't mean.. It isn't WORTH my TIME. A line's a dime a million times and I'm about to see all of them..

I'm about to see all the things I thought I'd never see before and I'm about to do all of the things I've dreamed of and I DON'T even MISS you at all!

Goodbye to you, you're TAKING up my TIME!

just LEAVE

My eyes burn from these tears.  You think I'd learn over these years.. good things  won't last forever.  So what the hell am I supposed to do?  You wanted the things I couldn't give to you and you had it all anyway.  So take.. take everything and leave me scrambling - reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place.  Tell me I'm wrong when I say I can't expect you to stay forever with me. I live for that single moment.  I take back everything I've said. You wore those words on your lips as if they meant anything anyway.  Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth.  It seems I do more harm than good and I don't know if it's worth me losing sleep over this..

WONKA's NERDS (the watermelon thing) .. really LOVE it!

Oh goody.. eating lotsa candies and chocolate chip cookies recently lessen the tension I feel inside.  Seems everything's a bit okay now.

I MISS YOU SO FAR.. AND THE COLLISION OF YOUR KISS THAT MADE IT SO HARD..

The BASICS of being an EMO..

A is for ALONE
and always complaining how you are just that.

B is for BRACELETS
but any wrist adornment will do.

C is for CRYING
until your eyes swell.

D is for DYED
black hair or any other color (as long as it is dyed).

E is for EMOTION
and exaggerating every one you have.

F is for FLOORPUNCH!!

G is for GLASSES
preferably thick black rims.

H is for HEARTBREAK
boo hoo.

I is for the INTENSE PAIN
you feel from unrequited love.

J is for JILTED LOVER

K is for KISSING
and whining about how you aren't doing it.

L is for LABELING YOURSELF

M is for MOOD SWINGS

N is for NEVER
having any friends that care about you.

P is for "PICKED LAST IN GYM CLASS"
and other cliches of the sort.

O is for "OLD MAN'S PANTS"

Q is QUESTIONING 
your self worth.

R is for REMEMBERING
the times when things were wonderful and then crying about how much your life sucks.

S is for SWEATERS

T is for THRIFT STORES

U is for UNDERDEVELOPED MUSCLES
because you have to be out of shape, one way or another, to be emo.

V is for VEGANISM

W is for WHINING
about how everything is so terrible, and your parents that make six figures can't buy you the love that you want.

X is for X-GIRLFRIENDS/BOYFRIENDS
and talking about the pain that they bring you.

Y is for YOUR
miserable existence

and lastly..

Z is  for ZOOMING
in with your cam because you're a photographer.

<<-- EMO is LOVE indeed, baby..

(YOU'RE) EVERYTHING

I'm gonna marry the guy who will sing this song to me..

Find me here...
And speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again

You are the strength
That keeps me walking
You are the hope
That keeps me trusting
You are the light to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this

You calm the storms
And you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fold
You still my heart
When you take my breath away
Would you take me in take me deeper now

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this

Cause you're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything.. everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything.. everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything.. everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
Everything.. everything

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better any better than this
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
-EVERYTHING by LIFEHOUSE

Crazy Little Thing Called LOVE

Why do people seem so CORNY when they are in "LOVE"?!  Listening to those MUSHY stuffs told by lovers to their sweethearts makes me wanna laugh out loud like this...HAHAHAHA!!

IN A REVERIE

I have you here in my dreams at night. You were holding my hands then I awake and you're not mine. Now it's time to rise. I want to turn cold ice in my soul..got to freeze this yearning inside.

When you're inflicted by the passion of love, desire and yearning the deeper they burn. You were...now it's too late. You were...now you're gone. It's too late. I was wrong. It's my fate.

I think of you and I see me. I'm the one I thought I've never be. No mercy for you, no mercy for me...

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU (I mean it!)

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU by MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you

I don’t want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby

I wont ask for much this Christmas
I wont even wish oh I wont even wish. I wont even wish for snow.
I’m just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play

Cause I just want you here tonight,
Holdin on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shinin surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children’s laughter fills the air
And everyone is singin' oh I hear those sleigh bells ringin'
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me

Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m askin for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you, you, its you, you, oh baby
All I want is you [x4]
You, you, you, you, you

***Hope he gets a chance to read this.. :-)

SUCKER FOR A SWEET TALKER

Perfect by nature, icons of SELF-INDULGENCE - just what we all need.. More LIES about the world that never was and never will be.  Have you NO SHAME don't you see me? You know you've got EVERYBODY FOOLED..

Look here she comes now, BOW down and stare in WONDER.  Oh, how we "LOVE" you, NO FLAWS when you're PRETENDING.. but now I know she never was and never will be.  You don't know how you BETRAYED me but somehow you've got EVERYBODY FOOLED..

Without the MASK, where will you HIDE?

Can't FIND yourself, LOST in your LIES..

I KNOW the TRUTH now, I KNOW who YOU are..and I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE..!!

..missing :-(

Please, please forgive me but I won't be home again.  Maybe someday you'll look up and barely conscious you'll say to no one - "Isn't something missing?" 

You won't cry for my absence, I know.  You forgot me long ago.  Am I that unimportant?  Am I so insignificant?

Isn't something missing?  Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice you won't cry for me, not now.  Though I'd DIE to know you LOVE me..I'm all alone.  Isn't something missing?  Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me, but I won't be home again.  I know what you did to yourself.  I breathe deep and cry out - "Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice you won't cry for me, not now.  Though I'd DIE know you LOVE me..I'm all alone.  Isn't something missing?  Isn't someone missing me?

And If I bleed, I bleed..knowing you don't care.  And If I sleep I still dream of you..awaking to find you're GONE..Isn't something missing?  Isn't someone missing me?

tO eVeRyThInG tHeRe iS a pUrPoSe ^^

A nice thing to ponder about...=)

Sometimes people come ito your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help figure out who you are, or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be, but when you lock eye with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.  And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realzed your potential, strength, will power, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason.  Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.  Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. 

Without these small tests, life would be like a smooth paved, straight flat road to nowhere.  Safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.  The people you meet affect your life. 

The success and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from.  In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things.

Make each day count.  Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked before, and actually listen.  Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.  Hold your head up because you have every right to.  Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe you.

Create your own life and then go out and live..=)

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